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Why do we hurt the ones we love the most?

Unknowingly, unintentionally,… and subtly

They drift away.

How do we please everyone?

How do we meet everyone’s expectations?

What is ‘right’? What is ‘wrong’?

Is the love we show ever enough?

Is there ever enough time?

Where do we find the balance?

Who do we start with?

WHAT IS OUR MAIN PURPOSE OF LIFE?

Flamin J’s Firehouse = FLAMIN JASON’S FIREHOUSE?

so i’m still at work, sittin in my comfortable cubicle, (secretly) typing this down - hey, i’m supposed to be working ok; updating my blog and keeping a straight, serious, look-like-busy (LLB ahah) face, looking over my shoulder and clicking in and out of this window.

[and then comes adeline wong... tsk tsk tsk. kacauing and poking me, eating my buscuits... i tell you she's really got nothing else to do! ish*]

aaaanyway… was surfing the net and checking out ‘flamin j’s’ in google and woooowww, to my surprise, got a lot of results leh. not bad ko! got your name there as well… ahaha..

for you guys who’s still blur, check out this mouth-watering website www.flaminj.com

personal favs from Flamin J’s - creamy Phyllis Cheese Steak! and the Ribeye Steak. i’m guaranteeing you that the steak goes way and beyond, better than some famed steak houses. [yeah, ade thinks so too] i can also guarantee you that there’s no other place Malaysia that serves this type of food except maybe NEW YORK?? ah ha! plus, the servings are B-I-G; good for those who have bottomless pit stomachs like me. *wink*

ahhh, it’s making me hungry again. i think if i were to stay next door to sri hartamas shopping centre, i’d be dining there everyday!! actually, most of the time i wanna go coz it’s very worth it to eat there, but bcoz i’m staying here in kajang, i’m also quite lazy to drive so far la….heh heh.

well, if anytime you guys get sooooo hungry you think you can eat a whole horse, gimme a buzz and i’ll take ya there BUT please don’t take for granted that it’s gonna be free coz it’s me bro’s place ok. meantime, i’m still trying to find a date to bring sis julia and family there.

ok, better get back to work before me gets sacked! :P~

wow! it’s been such a long time since i’ve written something here. i better start updating before my status change from being an aunty to a grandma :-P~

for some of you who haven’t found out yet - i’m married. yup! got hitched in May 20th, here in kajang; my whole family & some crazy friends came all the way from penang and some eventually found their way to the reception dinner, skipping the church ceremony. ehehe… kajang road too ‘complicated’.

since i’m not local and neither is Aylwin (Kuching guy), we rented a royal suite in The Mines(Palace) Beach Resort and Spa here in Serdang for the tea ceremony in the morning. that’s when the groom’s men had their best times with my lovely and creative ‘chi-mui’s.

after the tea ceremony, we had our vows taken in our church, Kajang Assembly of God, with a special number from the groom that had most of the ladies digging for tissues to dry their eyes with. awww…

all in all, everything went smoothly - hahha… though some not as planned, the timing was off to say the least. but the best thing was i had all the people closest to my heart with me that day; the wedding wouldn’t have been complete without them.

p/s: i love my wedding car - compliments from a very generous high ranking man

aiyo! why la i come back to kl so early for what … *&^%$^O(^&%#$@#! crap! regret i didn’t take this 2 days off and spend more time in Penang lah… regret i tell you… REGRET!!  if i’m still in penang, i wud’ve get to enjoyed more good food esp tonight when my datin aunty and datuk uncle havin their Open House. oh! but noooo… instead i opted to come back and now i have to face the horrid Canteen food! (blueecchkkk!! :P! )

it’s lunch time now and i went downstairs took a peek at the food, got even more upset with myself for having to come back to work so early when i shud’ve taken off and still be in beloved Penang - now i’ve lost my appetite totally, and all i cud eat was a stick of choc coated vanilla ice-cream…sighs* beats having what they serve down there anytime!

don’t know why i’m still having this ‘homesick’ feeling after sooo long being here… jeez it’s nearly 5/6 years plus the uni years. tot i’d get over it by now… guess i’ll never will? nevermind… maybe i cud plan to go back and settle down in Penang; maybe some time in the future.

*sighs* what a day it’s gonna be….

Phew! so the 2 nights were Great! it was a blast and a lot of ppl came to watch. the casts were good, backdrop, props, lights & sound, dancers & musicians - terrific! Even tho, the preparation in the beginning was crazy backstage, everyone waiting to be painted and dressed, kids running here and there, teens doing their crazy n LOUD stuffs, aunties chatting and busying away… hehehe!

all in all, it was worth the work, the effort and the time put in.

just then i was recalling something that i’ve put so much attention and effort into - but in the end, i got so disappointed and depressed over it; something so not worth at all!

when i was in F6 in sxi, i joined the Boards, and i was in d Traffics. there are 5 departments; classrooms, prefects, librarians, breaks and traffics. worked hard for it, i actually had to wake up at 5.30am every morning, walked like 2KM to get to the busstop to catch the FIRST morning bus at 6.15am. Maaan, it was a cold, dark and scary journey. cold breeze, dogs howling, shadows shifting…*shivers* and sometimes even through the rain i’d walk. i’m starting to wonder now, why in the world did i put so much commitment in it and get NOTHING out of it. seriously, NOTHING! like so what if i get best duty on that day or watever crap lah… it was so heartbreaking, can’t even be compared to the times when i joined RC during my secondary days, that at least i was learning something.

well, nvm… the past is the past. we learn from mistakes. but what i’m trying to get at is that, i’d much rather be committed and put all my effort [cry n sweat :-)] for the things that have ‘eternal value’. i’d much rather choose to work for a Being who loves me not because for the things i do for Him or for who i am, for the One who created and who holds the world in His hands, who is Greater and Bigger than anything in the world, someone whom i love.

and He’s worth EVERYTHING!!

(to view pics of the play –> http://www.flickr.com/photos/blogjunkie/sets/1610417/ or leonalim.com)

anyone feeling the christmassy mood yet? hmm… don’t know why but i kinda don’t feel anything… guess i must be growing up FINALLY? ehhehe…

then, christmas was about presents, and every year i’d go over to me mum’s side of d family to celebrate, more like eat and collect presents … eeee. but it’s been so long since i’ve been back to their house for christmas i can’t even remember what i last got from them! every time i visit, my cousins are like 2 inches taller, more pimples on their face (teenager mah) and they’re talking to me about marriage! ish*

well, this year my church’s doing a christmas PLAY..aaaaanother one for me, yeah! at least i’m not the producer (phew!) but still lotsa work and time. it came out in the papers last thursday, ‘A week before Christmas’. started work since Sept and we’re all praying that everything goes as planned this weekend.

So for those of you celebrating, MERRY CHRISTMAS to you… and hope you get all the gifts you wish for, enjoy the time with your family and friends -> these times get harder to come by esp when we start working and esp when we’re away from HOME.

and as for NEW YEAR… aaahh… i wish i could go back to that beach behind Crown Prince hotel, where we had bbq sand chicken wings, wine, beer, great company, guitar, laugther and relaxed fun! -not that we get pissed drunk or anything like that- but more cos of the company and i suppose the moonlight must have something to do with it.

let’s remember this Christmas that it’s not about the presents, not about the christmas tree, esp not santa, but it’s Christmas because Jesus was born n it’s His birthday we’re actually celebrating!

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR!! *hugs*

sheeesh!! I’ve got 3 weddings to attend this month man… One on the 11th, then on the 19th AND THEEENN on the 27th!!! phok khai man!

hey all, i’ve just updated my photo album! just got myself a video-cam, but most of the time taking pictures with it. it’s slower to process after a snap if compared to a digital camera but it’s good and clear - 5 megapixel. hahah… didn’t know i’d have so much fun with a cam of my own. not bad, you guys who still aint got one … go get it. it’s worth it.

November’s coming up, this year passed real fast. Baby Ashley’s gonna be 1! I miss her a lot, planned to go see her most of the time but didn’t manage to coz i’m just so busy!! with what? well, with work and with church activities. Christmas is coming and we’re having a stage play!! yay! think i’ve got a love for stage plays since the first one i did in form 6 in sxi… The Odyssey, it was great fun with a whole lot of talented crazy ppl!! yeah, those were the days.

after that it was in UKM with Malam Krismas ‘03. that was huge coz we had it in UKM’s auditorium. it was fun as well but not as crazy as it was in school back then. ahhaha… made a lot of friends through that production. and now it’s church, small scale, more ‘delicate’ and definitely not as crazy but hey, i still love it.

so i guess it’s till Jan then till everything’s settled. phew*

i followed a good friend of mine back to her hometown in Muar a couple of weeks ago for the weekend…just for fun since i’ve never been to the far south. and along the 2-3 hr drive, we chatted ’bout stuffs - life, bf-s, family … so on.

she also happens to be the youngest in her family; of 1 eldest brother and 1 older sister. so we were sharing about how it was like being the youngest sis and i found that we share some much-too-familiar times growing up with an older brother.

dunno bout some of you, but most of the time i wud lament on being the youngest sister - being bullied and picked on and all. i can still recall some ‘great’ memories of my childhood days with my bro … him experimenting with biji getah - like as if i dunno it’s hot, esp when it’s on my thigh!; him holding the line of the kite already way up in the sky, after i had run with it to catch wind so it can fly!; him always going out with his friends & having a good time while i sit at home n do housechores!; him callling me with ‘new vocabs’ he’d picked up from school; him hogging the radio and torturing me with his endless list of so-called fav songs esp PETER CETERA! - oh! i can still remember the lyrics… of mostly the whole album mind you.

but then, we also shared times dragging asap (ssshhh) and watching vcd-s in his room with a couple of drinks on hand - that was nice; him threatening a guy (some stoopid fool) who jilted me; him being my driver when i miss the school bus in the EARLY MORNING (muahahaha!), watching him get himself pissed drunk with his sama-geng friends and driving him home - not to mention cleaning up his MESS later. ah~ … it goes on.

it’s such an irony, but i felt that the times when we were playing as kids - more like being bullied; did bring us closer together. and no, i’m not complaining; just reminiscing the times we had; wished we had and hope to have in times to come. hahaha… but i sure ain’t going back to those times of inferiority again!

What are the ways to show someone you love them and appreciate the things they’ve done for you all through your life? i’m talking about our own family members.

Do we merely belanja them dinner? Because it’s so difficult in our culture esp to step forward and hug them and say ‘thank you, i love you’. Do we wait for their birthdays or special ‘Days’ and send presents when these days only come once a year?

Any ideas anyone?